I just sent K a message to have lunch together. Now i'm waiting for his reply...still pending(hopefully is a good news (^^)

I 'M NERVOUS-ing... (^_*)
Speechless now~I wont't afraid and i don't want to being afraid being rejected...
I still feel peacefully in my heart because i took the first step for myself.
Praying everything is going smooth and well.

ALL IS WELL!!

I'm awake but i'm not sober at all~
It's been a long time since my last notes updated.
I don't have a clear destination to reach for this time being, blur...

Maybe i should just keep K in my mind, will i be ok for not express my true feeling towards him??
I really not sure about this.
If i say: "K, i like u." Would i be able to endure the impact after that...?

Truly madly deeply

I m now at 1st step--investigating n observing.
Hopefully is a happy ending for me n him.
It doesn't matter if we become couple or friends.

GOD..do help me n i'll be very appreciate ur kindness.

(the texts maybe aggressive a bit..but who cares?)

Damn! Why my emotion these day is full of shit??
OMG! I can't believe myself is being so EMO these days...

But everything happened must have reasons behind...is because of u all!!!
I'm so tired with you all, can't you all do things seriously, clearly and completely???
I already divided all the task..so simple. Just do-->combine-->send to me.

What's so difficult...A BIG SHIT!!!

I"M SO SICK OF IT.I HATE THIS FEELING.SO PLEASE DO MAKE IT RIGHT FOR ALL OF US
FOR THE SAKE OF EVERYONE>>>

God, do tell me what I've done to let me be a group with them~

I don't know how to continue like this...I'm so frustrating now!!!!!!

Will I fall a sick if me continue hiding my feeling~

Alright, just give me once will do...

Maybe just lost all the memory after recovered, and i don't want to remember any of them!!

I'm really tired already...but when i think how my parents want me to have a Degree Cert. I wouldn't mind to be go through all of this...Master after Degree(no more IT course, only Bus. ok?)

I really enjoying express all my feeling by text. 

是不是没有机会了？
很想忘记，可是我没办法~

因为我的胆怯，怕自己受到伤害--被拒绝；所以不敢把真心话说出。

你也有喜欢的人了，我只能默默地，远远地望着你。

天啊！！自己终于有这么一天了~
心情：很郁闷呢！

Today~
I always feel i m comfortable to talk with him,but i don't want to become just friends with him...
Sometimes i think he act like showing sympathy on me, but i don't need this...really!
I wish i can meet him everyday, just a smile from him will do...i m not wishing too much right?
I can't wish them all the best...because honestly i m not agree with their status...however i click it but not sincerely at all.
My friend said we are like dating couple...so sweet indeed! I LIKE THIS!!
Somehow everything is depend on FATE.
Though i m going to take an action IF i have a chance to do that...despite all the  barriers & people's gossip.
Now i understood this kind of feeling~If we are determined no fate...then i wish i can someone like you :)
I HOPE SO~~~